Do better...
When I was younger, I did an experiment. An experiment of self-validation of sorts, completely selfish. I (after watching a night of fiction on the TV) decided to leave my teddy bear on the couch for my mother to find. The idea was for my mother to discover the misplace teddy bear, then walk it into my room and place it lovingly in my arms as I slept, just like on the TV. So, when my mother said it was time for bed, I obliged and excused myself to my room. I got into bed and then, I waited. Loving every moment of this experiment I could not absolutely wait for the payoff. The payoff being my mother would walk in the room and possibly kiss me on the cheek and then, place my teddy bear between my arms as I slept. My mother did not disappoint, ...well sort of. You see, the teddy was delivered as I hoped it would be. The method of delivery left a lot to be desired. As I pretended to sleep, I heard my mother open the door and step in. I remember thinking this is it! Validation of my mother's love summed up in this one, simple gesture. The door opened, my mother stepped in and.....thump! The thump I speak of was my teddy bear hitting my head, deployed by my mother's hand from the door. She hurled the damn bear from the doorway, not even bothering to step in fully to see if it made it to my side safely. WTF? This wasn't exactly the idea I had in mine. I remember thinking to myself, "this wasn't how it went in the show". At any rate, I got over it and went to sleep. I guess that's just how my mother was, her loved shine though other aspects that didn't necessarily reflect what I saw in TV land and that was fine. I was reminded of this repressed memory the other night when kid # 2 left her teddy bear on the couch. I picked it up, walked into her room and stood in the door way. Then, hurled it at her from the my location. Do better.....FY '13

